i don’t hate you for this.
people seem to think i should. and i guess it would be easier, in many ways.
but i can’t go from loving someone so much to hating. i don’t know how to turn off love.
you and i always disagreed about the fundamental nature of people. but i can’t change the way i see the world; i believe that people are good.
i hate what you did, and i truly hate feeling this way. i am angry and sad and frustrated and grief-stricken. i don’t understand it, and i don’t want to let you off the hook for any of it.
i feel sucker-punched.
but i won’t – can’t – hate you. i will always care about you, wish you well, and hope you find peace and happiness.
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15 March 2012 at 12:18 pm
Scooping it up
that is why you are you. full of love.
15 March 2012 at 4:54 pm
Sue
Class. All class. Me not so much. I hate him for doing that to you.
15 March 2012 at 5:14 pm
kate
“Won’t” is an important word there. I’m glad your choosing the little bit of control you have here.
But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt.
16 March 2012 at 11:21 am
KateM
I know… I know… you are not a hater… never will be… some of us just are ’cause we love you! Thanks for reminding us of the high road…it will help you, I am sure. oxoxo
16 March 2012 at 5:04 pm
Katie
Well, as your friend, I am totally able and willing to do the hating for you.
26 March 2012 at 5:22 pm
artfulstarfish
Im with Katie. I dont really know either of you, but Im mad! Its not fair. I hope the knowledge that you are the better person gets you through the worst of this. You deserve better!!