i don’t hate you for this.
people seem to think i should. and i guess it would be easier, in many ways.
but i can’t go from loving someone so much to hating. i don’t know how to turn off love.
you and i always disagreed about the fundamental nature of people. but i can’t change the way i see the world; i believe that people are good.
i hate what you did, and i truly hate feeling this way. i am angry and sad and frustrated and grief-stricken. i don’t understand it, and i don’t want to let you off the hook for any of it.
i feel sucker-punched.
but i won’t – can’t – hate you. i will always care about you, wish you well, and hope you find peace and happiness.